Word of the Week – Sad

I thought really hard about what to write for this weeks word of the week, should I gloss over the fact that I’m having a hard time at the moment and just share something light or should I just write about how I feel and be honest.

Unexpectedkindness is themost powerful,least costly, andmost underratedagent of humanchange

Writing about real personal stuff on a blog is always a gamble, as well as putting yourself out there for strangers to read you are always aware that people who know you personally will read it and judge you or snipe behind your back but this is my blog and I want to write and share with you the bad times as well as the good.

I struggled to find a word to properly sum up how I am feeling and after reading about the horrific events in France last night the word sad immediately sprung to mind. I always try to put on a brave front to force myself into positive thoughts, I try to look for the good in a situation but this past week I’m really struggling to feel anything but sad.

Reasons I Feel Sad

  • 18 months ago I walked away from a life long relationship with a toxic person, I cut all ties, and had got to the stage where I didn’t even think about them anymore, I celebrated a whole year of freedom before they started seeping back in little by little. A few weeks ago something happened that means there is a real threat to one of my relationships because of this toxic person, I can’t say much more other than being estranged from a person is much much harder than it sounds as you can never truly escape from them whilst they still exist.
  • Someone I love is being treated horribly by people who are meant to love them, I feel helpless I want to take away their pain I want to scream and shout at these people who can’t see how wonderful, loving and caring person this person is.
  • I’m struggling with my diabetes diagnosis, I’m at the anger stage of not wanting this horrible disease and fighting against the very changes I need to make to get well.
  • Waking up every day to see more and more bad news for our country, our economy and our future is really getting me down, to avoid all forms of news means having to also avoid every single form of social media which is difficult as I use it for finding work.
  • I worry for the choices and decisions that my two eldest children are making, they don’t live with me but I still worry about them every single day.

I know that these things are nothing compared to what some people have to face but at the same time these are my battles that I have to live with and face daily, writing them down means that they are out of my head and I can start to try and deal with them one by one.

I’m linking up with Jocelyn from The Reading Residence for Word of the Week.

 

The Reading Residence
Angela xx

19 Comments

  1. Anne
    July 15, 2016 / 10:37 am

    I know what you mean, opening up and telling people how you feel is making yourself vulnerable and it’s something I have difficulty with myself. But in doing so it also makes you more real to people and they will understand you more. I can’t solve any of your problems or make the world a better place, but I can send you a gentle hug and tell you that I hope you are not feeling so sad next week and manage to find some sunshine in your life xx

    • July 16, 2016 / 6:39 am

      Thank you so much for your lovely comment Anne, it means a lot xx

  2. Little Steps
    July 15, 2016 / 10:44 am

    Sharing personal things on your blog is indeed a bit scary. But if it helps you, why not? Besides, it is after all your blog 🙂 I’m so sorry things are not okay this week. Hopefully next week will be better. Getting rid of someone toxic is always a great idea and I can imagine how difficult it must be. Sending you virtual hugs. #wotw.

  3. Jocelyn (@ReadingRes)
    July 15, 2016 / 12:13 pm

    I’m sorry to hear that you’re feeling so down at the moment, though can understand why with all of those things happening in your life. It’s so hard when one or to things get to you, as then other things are harder to manage to, I think. I hope that having written them down it has helped, sending hugs x Thanks for sharing with #WotW

    • July 16, 2016 / 6:40 am

      Thank you, it always helps me to write things down and sharing helps me even more x

  4. Merlinda Little
    July 15, 2016 / 1:25 pm

    I am in that toxic situation. I want to be separated to my husband and I can but I dont have a place to go as he said that the flat where we are is his. I dont have anyone here so I am living with the person that I hated the most and he is expecting me to be normal when all I have in me is anger.

    I am writing about this in the blog. This is my way of asking for help really but at the moment there is nothing going on in that department.

    I have to admit that I might have lost so much interest from the PR so instead of earning from the blog I am not.

    I get you. I know your pain. I hope that things will be better there. #wotw

    • July 16, 2016 / 6:43 am

      Thank you Merlinda, I really hope things get better for you soon and you’ve made the first step by asking for help there will be lots of changes ahead but I know that you will emerge from them much stronger, thinking of you x

      • Merlinda Little
        July 16, 2016 / 11:14 am

        Thanks. That means a lot coming from you. Take care.

  5. Littlesheep
    July 15, 2016 / 1:54 pm

    Sorry to hear that things are tough for you right now – hope things get better and you can be less sad soon

  6. rainbowsR2beautiful
    July 15, 2016 / 5:16 pm

    I’m glad you’ve felt like you can share how you feel. It sounds like you e been able to identify things that aren’t as you’d like them to be at the moment, and I hope that perhaps by writing them down and sharing them you can feel at least like we are here listening to you. All the best and hugs xxx #WOTW

  7. July 15, 2016 / 8:17 pm

    Sending you a big hug! It sounds like you need it. You have a lot going on and I hope you manage to work your way through dealing with them x

  8. sam r
    July 16, 2016 / 2:57 pm

    Sending you lots of love and remember it is your blog you write what you want. Sounds like you have a lot on your plate and change is always hard. You have to take it one step at a time. I always remember someone telling me that you can’t control everyone, the only person you can control is yourself X #wotw

  9. July 17, 2016 / 12:48 pm

    It’s great to write things out instead of bottling things up. I too have been found to be Diabetic (Type 2). #WotW

  10. July 17, 2016 / 10:53 pm

    I’m so you’re finding things tough Angela, I hope getting it out helps a little. Hopefully time will help and you’ll find a way with many of these problems. Some you won’t, you’ll never not worry about your kids after all just hope for the best! Lots of hugs xx

  11. July 19, 2016 / 5:10 pm

    That sounds like it’s been a really tough week, but I agree better out than in and hopefully you’ve felt supported writing about this from online friends and those in real life. Toxic people are just the worst, but one day they will get their comeuppance, it may just take a while… #wotw

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