Up until the middle of August I was blogging regularly, the ideas for posts were coming thick and fast, the inspiration and motivation to do things so I could blog about them was at an all time high, then all of a sudden everything stopped.
If you are a regular reader of my blog then you may have read other posts where I have touched on the fact that I do suffer bouts of depression, I can’t tell when this is going to happen and one morning in August from the minute I woke up I knew the horrible darkness was back.
As I get older I’m starting to recognise the build up to a bout and what my triggers are, there were a few things niggling me for weeks that I didn’t confront and unfortunately that’s the outcome for me.
I’m also convinced that I’ve had a bad reaction to the contraceptive injection (Depo), I am going to write a separate post explaining about it.
Anyway, I’m feeling so much better, I had a kind of rock bottom moment recently and it’s been onwards and upwards ever since.
I decided not to seek medical help this time around and instead have looked at ways that I can help myself through it, it’s a work in progress and I now accept that I will have to work really hard the rest of my life to not let depression gets it’s hooks well and truly in.
My head is once again full of ideas of things I want to do and write about, now comes the task of finding the time.
I had stopped writing some of my regular posts as I wasn’t sure which direction I wanted to take my blog, but I reminded myself that this is my space to write in, I’m writing for me and if I’m lucky enough for anyone else to read it then that’s a bonus.
I’m going to be working on a posting schedule to keep me focussed as I know that writing is my therapy, I’m going to bringing back some of the old regular posts I used to write like ‘Webster’s Week In Wins’ which I’m going to revamp to include my success with surveys, I’ve also got some ideas for new regular posts.
The most important thing for me at the moment to accept is that if I don’t feel like blogging I won’t, I don’t want to lose the joy of writing so I’m taking the pressure off myself.
Thanks for reading.