Word Of The Week-Tension

I almost didn’t write this weeks post. I don’t like writing about negative things too often, I like to keep my blog on the upbeat side if I can. That’s not always real life though is it. This week hasn’t been great to be honest, and try as I might I just couldn’t turn it around. This weeks word is tension.

I don’t want to write a cryptic post but at the same time I can’t write about specifics. As in everyone’s life there are undercurrents, unsettling things and worries. I choose not to blog about those things because I refuse to dwell. I’m a strong person, I’ve been through an awful lot in my life. I usually paint on a smile, pull my socks up and take on head first whatever life throws in my direction. Not this week though, I just couldn’t.

I let worries win, I wallowed in self-pity and I caused an awful lot of tension with my thunderous mood. There has been tension both inside and outside of home. After a few days of feeling utterly rotten I decided enough was enough. I had to talk about how I was feeling so that’s what I did. I was totally honest and when people asked if I was okay I said actually I’m not, it was such a relief. I’m an expert at making it look like I have it all together. I sometimes forget that’s it’s okay not to have it all together all the time.

The tension is slowly dissipating, I’m ready to face the battles once more with a steady and determined smile on my face.

The Reading Residence

 

8 Comments

  1. September 22, 2017 / 10:19

    So true, and I feel the same. I do hope things get better for you soon xx
    #wotw

  2. September 22, 2017 / 11:12

    I’m glad you were able to talk it through. I hope next week is easier. It’s good to let people know that you do have your limits. #wotw

  3. September 22, 2017 / 11:31

    I’m glad the tension’s starting to ease, I do think talking about it helps. I hope next week’s a better week for you x Thanks for sharing with #WotW

  4. September 22, 2017 / 12:49

    I can imagine how hard it is for you and sorry to hear your struggling, hugs X #wotw

  5. September 22, 2017 / 13:55

    I know it is a cliche but sharing a problem really does help. I have been guilty in the past of holding it all in until I was at breaking point. I hope things pick up for you know the tension is lessening x #wotw

  6. September 22, 2017 / 14:48

    Sometimes we can deal with stuff and sometimes we can’t, there is no shame in the days we can’t. I hope next week will be better for you xx

  7. September 26, 2017 / 16:47

    Sorry to read that you’ve been feeling this way. #WotW

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