This week I’ve found myself feeling quite lost. I thought that once the kids were back at school I would fall easily into a work routine. Instead, I’ve been that stressed about what I should actually be doing that I’ve given myself a raging tension headache and anxiety.
Isn’t it funny how sometimes you get what you have been waiting for so long, then all of a sudden you don’t know what on earth to do with it. That has definitely been me this week.
I didn’t account for how I would adjust to the change and it’s hit me like a ton of bricks. It seems so silly but the empty house, the quietness and the change in routine have left me feeling lost. I think I should have taken a planned week off instead of the forced one I’ve ended up taking.
Trying to carry on despite the blinding headache and neck pain only served to make me feel worse. I finally gave in and decided that I needed to give myself some time. Taking myself off to bed yesterday and staying there until my head felt clear has done wonders.
Over the weekend I’m going to make myself a work schedule, without one I find myself bouncing from one thing to another. I want to be more productive so that I feel like I’ve used my time well. A schedule will hopefully also mean that I can switch off when I need to, although I might be kidding myself about that I am self-employed after all.
On a more positive note the kids are really enjoying school and have both settled so well. They come home exhausted but happy and give the best cuddles that make me feel anything but lost.
You might enjoy my previous word of the week post, School.